Mission in Action(Open)

[Akari]

Akari slipped through the dark streets, making her way to the abandoned mansion, planning to ruin the exchange of the man Mike and his two companions. It was actually early, but even he said when she saw them again on the streets that the time changed to nighttime. To match the darkness, she wore her black leather suit and she had her black bag too. Jumping into a tree, she flipped into another until she got high, enough and close enough to jump onto the roof. She already knew they were in there, she could hear them from outside, considering of how old the house was.

"You have the rest, right?" Said the familiar voice that belonged to Mike's companion that he talked with last time. "Of course, do you have it?" Mike asked. "Duh, we don't leave without it." Akari grinned her teeth together. What is "it"? Sighing loudly, she took her head away from the wood, lifted her arm back and punched it straight through, jumping in. Their heads jerked up and she just landed a little way away from them. "W-who the hell are you?!" Asked Mike's companion. "Me? Why, I'd be the exact thing you've been trying to avoid." She said as she looked at him, placing her hands on her hips. "Police?!" He asked. "I wouldn't say I'm the police, but I do work for the government. Now, we can do this easily, meaning you give me what you're exchanging, since it's probably nothing good, or, you can fight and get your asses kicked. your choice." She told him. they backed away from her, clutching the items closer to them. "I see you decision is made..." She said as a few more men stepped in and she took out her cell phone, dialing nine one one.

"Nine one one what's your emergency?"

"Yeah, you know the old abandoned mansion up on the hill?"

"Yes ma'am."

"Good, because I'm going to need enough ambulances to carry, let's see, one, two." As she counted, she pointed to each man. "
Five adults and some police." She said as she tossed the cell phone with a smirk and ran forward, attacking. she kicked one man, and bent down as another man tried to catch her, but she lifted her leg and kicked him in the stomach, knocking him down like a ton of bricks. Two down. She jumped back, landing behind another man and hitting him in a pressure point, then kicked him in the side, sending him flying. Three.. She was about to turn away when she felt a cold blade scrape deep into her skin. "Ahh! That hurt!!" She yelled as she grabbed her forearm. "Bastard!!" She said as she dodged his knife and grabbed his shirt collar , pulling it over him and kicking him aside. Hearing the other man coming, she just turned and held out her fist as he ran in it. "Dumb-ass..." That makes five. so, let's see what mister Mike was trading.

Walking over to the suitcases, she opened them and saw bombs in mystery man's and drugs in Mike's. "Tsk tsk.. Shame on you, mystery man.." Changing out of her leather, she grabbed her suitcases and took out her little walkie talkie thing. "Gabriella to base." she said. "Base, Gabriella." A male voice said. "Mission success, items were bombs and drugs. Shall I bring them back, or take it to the police?" It was silent for a minute and she knew he was thinking. "Bring it down here, and we'll take care of it. Good job, Gabriella." She smiled. "Thanks sir. I'll be there." She told him as she put it back in her bag, throwing it on her shoulder and took the suitcases, walking out as the police and ambulance just arrived. Turning the corner, she stopped and took out a thing of bandages. "Damn, he cut me good.."

[gingerfrost]

Leonardo was in his complete black suit with his personal symbol of a white bird that was extremely small on the top right hand shoulder. It was facing the way his body naturally faced. That way if he fought any enemies, it'll be visible to them. If they had normal vision. He carried few weapons mostly focused on being quiet and sneaky.

He had recently learned that few men tonight was going to meet at this building. It is rumored they were going to trade a new aiming technology. He was hoping this was true.

When he had gotten there ambulance and siren alarms was going off. He quickly slid into the tree, and sighed. The trade was a dud. The trade was canceled through some one letting the facts out. He would probably never find out, what they were trading off, till he hacks the computers at the police station.

He sighed and slid into perfect position in the tree. He swung his leg in frustration not caring if he hits anybody in the forehead below.

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[Akari]

Akari tied the bandage around her arm and bit the edge to tighten it. Sighing, she leaned back. Why do people do the wrong thing when they know it's wrong? Was it the way they were raised? Hell, if I did something wrong, I'd get beat for it.. I couldn't hardly do anything.. I guess parents are different.. A lot different./. I wonder why people do drugs though? Blow stuff up? What kind of fun is that? It's nothing but damaging your body and causing others pain, how is that fun? What do drugs do, anyway? Not like I'd ever try it.. Truth was, she kind of did want to try it, but she was afraid to, the government had much worse stuff to hit her with than just hands. The government never hit her, because she never did anything bad. She tried to be the best she could which usually kept her from trouble, so wasn't sure if they even would, but didn't want to find out.

Looking at the sky, Akari thought she heard something the tree, but ignored it. I wonder what the woman who calls herself my sister is doing.. She better not be stirring trouble, but knowing her she is. Why does she hate me, what did I do to her?! I barely shared or even looked at her! Is that why..? Pretty stupid if you ask me. If she wanted a bond, she could've made one herself. She should consider herself lucky, she never got hit and always got what she wanted, unlike me.. I thought it was the little sister who had it all.. Hmph, spoiled little b-

Akari stopped and her head fell forward a bit when a shoe hit her in the head. Rubbing her head, she glared upwards to see a boy sitting there with a black suit on with a white dove on the shoulder. "Um, ow?! That kind of hurt here! Did you ever think there's someone below you?!" She yelled at him. Hmph, despite the low impression I have of him now, the guy's pretty hot.. Looking away, she turned a little pink and folded her arms. That did hurt though..

(shoot, it's short, I'm sorry. v.v)

[gingerfrost]

{Short? It was longer than mine, I believe... Umm your not thinking of a live dove, I hope. It the same symbol as in the pic, in my signature.. The only difference is in color.. Didn't you read the bio?}

"So." He replied grimly. Why should I care. You should be the one paying attention. I wonder.... Did she cause this ruckus? He let the thought slip in his mind for a while. He figured the best way to get information from the girl, was to say sorry or whatnot. "Sordthie, Madame. I didth not know you where dthere." He slid from the tree gracefully and landed on the ground beside her. He stood his best calm stance. It would've looked even more calm and smooth if he had a tail stinking out.

He notice how the person with a girl voice stood up. He could not see how hot she was or how old she even was. He wondered how smart she was. If she truly had broken into that place and caused all the trouble he'll have to be careful. He knew she must've worked for someone. The Windows company? Or maybe even our rivals.. If she was here during this time. She must be working for somebody. He noticed how she was dressed in black and had lots of technology on her. She must be a spy or a mercenary. Could she possibly work for the government... That didn't make sense.. Then again the goverment never made any sense. They had so many secrets. Not even my own family could figure them all out.

It seems to me the technology she wore allowed her night vision, hacking, and obviously to kill. She was most defiantly a spy. Who hacks if not to spy? Well other than my brother.. He does it to get out of school. Hmm I wonder.. If she truly did beat up those men in that room. Who knows how many there was. Well if my theory correct she would know. She could probably describe them right now.

A light flashed in his eye. It suddenly reminded him of the ambulance and cops. Why cops... Why would cops and ambulance be here? If she was working for a company or a mercenary should would fled and hide. Not only that but it'll be a huge secret. She must be in connections to them.. Yes most defiantly.. She had to be working for the government or a super strong unknown organization. Only someone with lots of money and connections would not have to worry about cops.... I wonder what this organization is. If she does work for the organization. Not only that but was she super powered?

She did beat all those guys.. Not any normal girl could do that. She was probably trained in martial arts.. Who hasn't? I would have to be extremely careful. I don't want to use my gun on her. I might have to trust my freaking powers. This is absolutely perfect. I cannot control my heart rate. Nobody, in the world can control they're heart rate. But emotions... No.. I want to see how smart this girl actually is. Who knows. She might even be hot.

Leonardo quickly cleared his head of all his thoughts. When it had occurred to him she might be a mind reader. But then he began to wonder.. Why bother beating up the guys in the abandoned building? She was most likely not a mind reader. He had concluded. He sighed and let his mind empty of thought. He waited to see the girl's reaction.

{Redeemed! Wohoo!}

[Akari]

{{Oh no! I wasn't thinking of a live one! XD I was thinking of a white one though, damn. V.V Yeah, I read the bio, but I have terrible memory. x.x}}

Akari just sat there until she heard the boy just say, "so". She clenched her teeth to keep her jaw from dropping open. "So? You could have busted my head open! what if I was already injured on the head? You just would've made it worse. Now wouldn't you be the bad guy." She told him, irritated. Looking to the side, she listened as he spoke and watched as he landed on the ground next to her. At least he apologized, doing it in a strange way or not... "Yeah, whatever.." she said as she crossed her legs, placed her elbow on her knee and laid her head in her palm. Crap, now I'm being the rude one.. He did apologize, I should lighten up.... She sighed slightly and looked at him. "So, what should I call you, bird-man?" She asked, referring to the symbol on his clothing.

Looking to the side again, Akari just silently watched as they loaded the men she beat up about five minutes ago into the back of the ambulances, or, the ones that needed to go, the others, which was Mike and one companion, got arrested. She smirked. Job well done, No more drugs or bombings for them. Bye bye, Mikey and mystery man. Who knows, you mat get released and we can do the same scenario over and you can brood about getting your ass kicked by a girl that's younger than you? Looks like you'll even get your ass kicked by the men in jail for being a pansy, but they won't admit themselves that they got their ass kicked by me too. Ha! Oh, I suppose being a spy is fun at times too, just like now. Oh gosh, that makes me sound horrible.. what am I turning into?

Akari's eyes followed as a police car drove up and stopped in front of them, rolling down the window. Shit.. The police man waved a finger at Akari, telling her to come over, so she stood up from the bench. "Excuse me for a minute.." She said to the boy as she walked over. "Yes?" The police man rolled up the window to block Mike and mystery man out so they couldn't hear. "You called us, right? Work for the government?" He whispered really soft, and she just nodded. "So, tell me, what did they have? what were the items?" This isn't the place to talk about this.. "They were bombs and drugs, sir." She whispered back. "Really? Do you have them? Want us to take them off your shoulders?" He questioned. "es, I have them and no worries, I already asked and they want me to bring them back with me." He nodded and rolled up the window, saying nothing more. She stood there and watched him drive away. Was it just me, or did he seem disappointed? Hm..

Turning back around and walking back to the bench she sat down, looking at him. He seemed to be in thought. "What seems to have you so thoughtful, bird-man? Ambulance and police? Don't worry about them, their just here to clean up someone's mess. Whoever it was needs to learn a cleaning habit." she told him as she waved her finger and leaned back on the bench. Hey.. I just insulted myself... Dammit!

[gingerfrost]

{I'm gonna pretend all that thinking did not happen. Instead I'm gonna pretend he was wondering why a pretty girl was in the woods during this time. Also how the police had gotten her attention and asked few questions.. Then piece things that way... Except he marks her as a mind reader. with some kind for weapon.. This is due to the fact he always keeps a gun.}

He noticed the girl was feisty.. He thought for a moment, she was pretty cute. He was upset the big technology scheme wasn't technology at all. It was simply a bunch of drugs and bombs. Damn.. Someone in the business trying to get me killed. Well they failed.. "Again" "Well if you'd must know. I'm called Winged Shadow." He said in matter-of-fact voice.

He looked around at the night and sighed. Not caring for her rational comments. It was obvious she was a big mouth bass. Talk and talk. "Yeah.. Too bad. It mustn't have been a spy or mercenary. They wouldn't leave this big of a mess. Then again.. Couldn't I have?" He said this with normal American tone. He wasn't speaking with Italian accent anymore. He watched her reaction. If she was an average teenager walking in the forest. She would be giving him a suspicious look or some kind of reaction. If not well.. No point in going to detail. He would seriously have to consider his moves. He hated to play dirty. He figured if she was truly one of those super powered teens.. She would easily kick his butt. No questions asked. Humph.. I act like I'm 30.. I'm one of those lame super powered teens.. Just that I flew through high school and started working for big big businesses.

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[Akari]

"Winged-Shadow huh? Hm.. Too long of a name, I like bird-man, unless you wish to give me a real name. Since I don't know your real name, just a nickname, I'll tell you my nickname, which is Gabriella. Tell me your real name, and I'll tell you mine, sound fair?" Akari asked as she looked at him and arched an eyebrow. Winged-Shadow huh? Shadow I can understand, but unless he has wings sprouting out of his back, I don't think that part is very necessary... Still, it's a cool name over all, I just have a normal, common name not mask my real one. I'm not exactly a big-shot hero, so I don't get one of those names, I just got typical ones. Ah well, Gabriella isn't the worst name ever, plus, it's better than not having one at all..

She watched silently as "Winged-Shadow" looked around and sighed. Oops, I wonder if I pissed him off.. Hm.. As he spoke, she flinched a bit at the words "spy" and "mercenary". "Yeah.. They would never leave that big of a mess, they're just not like that, you know?" She told him as she laughed Sheepishly. I'm so terrible at hiding this.. Ugh! I should've probably just left... If he finds out I'm going to be in soo much trouble, especially if I don't kill him.. Sighing herself, Akari went back to paying attention to him as he began to speak again. "Did you? You certainly seem like a man that would clean up after himself... I am wrong, no?" She asked him.

[gingerfrost]

Tell her my real name.. I don't care how hot she is. She will never get my real name. That is simply just classified. This girl is stupid to think I'll hand it over. I guess we are in the same playing field. Curious. He listened as she started to laugh sheepishly. He showed no sign of his thoughts. He simply answered, "My name is classified. If I tell you, I would have to kill you." he laughed at this like it was a joke. He even said it in a jokish tone. Then he looked directly at her. As if letting her think, he knew who she was. His eyes were filled with such confidence that it could burn into the soul. " However.. Every thing has a hint buried beneath the silk." He said this in a matter-fact way. He figured that giving the girl a hint wouldn't hurt to bad. He rather thought it would be exciting. Just what he wants to play, a mind game. Winner take all?


He answered her question with a simple puzzle. "Technology does have its greatest advances. It is said many teens are being turned into killers." He said this in a sheepish way. He was actually grinning wolfishly. She laughs sheepishly.. She must not be used to this sort of thing. Most girls would be paralyzed with fear or scream no.. It mattered not what action she had taken. She is guilty.. No average girl teen walks away from an area with ambulances and policemen alone. I don't care how old you are. Girls just never do it.

I so am gonna play a game. I want to know who she is.. Who she really is. Too bad I don't use any of my own inventions.. I would love to take a picture of her. Then again.. Isn't that why I don't use my own inventions? Because it would ruin the fun... Hmm too bad Riddler toke the good name. I just got sucky with Shadow Wing. The actual name is another hint, of who I am. I just want people to find me.

Leonardo started to walk away back toward the exit trail to the forest. He just left the girl, he didn't even wait for her. He most defiantly dropped the rich guy act.

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[Akari]

"My name is classified. If I tell you, I would have to kill you."[/u]

"Is that so? Well, aren't we talking big now, "Winged-Shadow"? Even if you do have the skills to back up that statement, I'd like to see you try. Since you're not the only one here with the skills to kill." Akari told him with a smirk. She was probably digging herself a hole that'll be hard to get out of, but whatever. What was the chance of seeing him again? She'd love it if she could see him again, but right now she'd just enjoy the time she got with him right now. Despite not knowing his real name, but names weren't everything. She looked over him, then looked away, blushing. Dammit! Ugh, why do hot guys have to be so hot?! The government is right, the reason I'm so bad at hiding things from guys is because of their looks! I'd tell him everything!! DAMMIT!

He began to speak, but she wasn't following, despite her intelligence that she never really showed. "I'm sorry, I don't understand. I've never been excellent with mind games..." Akari told him as he was grinning rather, wolfishly. Smirks seem to fit him well... Hmm... Damn, there I go again.. Look away! His looks will be the end of you! She looked to the side and lifted her hand to her eyes so she couldn't see him from the side, but couldn't help but look over to him a few times. Nn..! I am such a weakling when it comes to guys like him! Why, why does it have to be him here?! It is and isn't bad, and I'm happy yet not!! Ahh!

Winged-Shadow then turned and began to walk away. Akari stared after him for a second and blinked for a minute, waiting for it to hit her. Then, before even thinking, she jolted up and dropped her bag. Ignoring it, she bolted after him. "Wait!" She said as she stopped and grabbed his hand. She bit her lip and looked back at the suitcases and her bag. "Wait right here. leave and I'll kick your ass." She threatened as she let go and ran back towards her things, grabbing her walkie-talkie thing. "Gabriella to base."

"Gabriella? Where are you with the items?!" The male voice said. "I'm sorry sir, I won't be coming tonight, I have something to do, I was hoping you could come and pick them up." Akari told him. "What is it are you doing? Find a robber or something?" "No, nothing like that sir.." "A date then? Oh god, with who and when can we meet him? He better not be a punk ass goth or something." Her face turned completely red. "Sir!!! It's not a date! Besides, even if he was something like that who are you to tell me who I can and cannot date?!" She yelled at him. "Well, we did raise you.. I'm more like your father, so I do have right to tell you who you can or cannot date, young lady!" He yelled back. " She rolled her eyes. "Don't roll your eyes at me." "Eep! How did you know?!" "I know because I know you. Alright, I'm coming to get them, but you two better be there, I'm meeting him."

Akari bit her lip, looking to the side at Winged-Shadow and back to the walkie-talkie. sorry sir, but we won't be here.. Ugh, I hate lying.. "Alright sir, we'll be right here waiting for you. We're just a little father down from the Abandoned Mansion. Meet you here." She told him. "Alright, see you." After that, she began to pack her things up,. Swinging the bag on her shoulder, she placed the suitcases on the curb for him to come and pick them up. With that done, she turned back to Winged-Shadow, running back and grabbing his hand again, running off.

[gingerfrost]

He didn't hear a very good reply to from her. He could not help but wonder if the girl actually had a lame crush on him. What is with this girl? I'm like 56... Oh wait.. I'm a teen! Ugh! All this technology and business is getting in my head. I keep forgetting I'm a freaking teenager still. He Whipped off all smirks and deep thought looks. He noticed how she called someone.

So she does work for someone? But who I wonder.. And items.. What items? Oh yeah from those maniacs that I thought was working for another company.. I wonder is she the one that was suppose to kill me tonight? He looked at her closely. She wasn't very bright. She even admitted sucking at mind games. He had learned to never trust the physical body make-up. Anybody could be dangerous in this sort of world. "Hmm.. I guess we're going on a date?" He said this in a sarcastic joking tone. Like he could not believe he just got pulled in a date with a super hot girl. Who is also an enemy and would be nice to have around. Keep your friends close.. Keep your super hot enemies closer. You might just learn a few things. I would be wise to hide my identity from her. Then again.. I like to play. Let's see what my enemy has up for me.

He ran with her following her out. He hoped she wasn't planning to take him to a booming test zone. That was not at all part of his plans. Not only that but he didn't have any technology to protect him.

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[Akari]

((Lmao!! XD I will have you know she is very smart! XDD Just, doesn't show it.. So, does he think she works for someone who's trying to kill him? O.o))

"Hmm.. I guess we're going on a date?"[/u]

Despite the way he said it, which was sarcastic, Akari still ended up blushing and falling face first to the ground. Why does everyone ask this..? It's embarrassing enough when my "dad" says it, but even more when he says it! her head spun a bit, but she shook it off and began to get up, now feeling like a fool. "I, don't know, are we? She asked. She blinked for a minute, then turned to him and began to laugh. "I look like a major loser, don't I?" She rubbed the back of her head and continued to laugh as she finished standing. Well of course I look like a loser! Who trips and dalls face first just by a silly remark!? ....Okay, many people probably do.. Okay, let's narrow that down.. How many SPIES fall face first by a silly remark? Ahaha! Got ya' there! ....Did I really just dis myself? I need help.. She slammed her head down into her hands.

Ignoring that, she went back to running with him. Oy.. He's going to be pissed for leaving even though I told him we'd wait.. But I really don't want them to meet, not especially since I hardly know him myself.. I'm in soo much trouble.. That sounds very strange, a spy, getting in trouble at home.. Wow.. I got issues. I'm a loser, I'm a spy, I get in trouble despite being a spy, I fall on my face because of a remark, my main weakness is hot guys/men, and the list can go on.. I'm sure I can ask bird-man here and he could list ten things straight out.

It was a little while later and Akari began to slow down to a stop. "This seems far enough.." She told him as she jumped, grabbing a tree branch and quickly climbed up, placing her bag on a strong branch and then just fell down, landing on her feet. Well, that's not fair, I land on my face for a comment, yet when I jump out of a tree I land on my feet.. Wonderful Leaning against the bark of the tree she just climbed, she looked at him. "So, bird-man, what's up with the costume? Big shot hero or mastermind villain?" She asked him.

[gingerfrost]

Leonardo watched this girl closely.. She seemed so odd. Could she truly be the killer hired to kill him? She must've been just out to get those guys.. He just happened to fall upon her. But then again this could be all an act. Just to win his "I-love-hot-girls" heart. When she asked him the serious question of him being a bad guy or a good guy. He wondered.. Which was he? He stole goods form other companies and plagiarize along with remaking them. He could easily create devices to wipe out the whole planet. While making it look artsy and creative at the same time. He only does the stealing personally for personal benefits. Such as the adrenaline rush and learning to control your heart pulse.

He tasted this question for a long time.. It tasted bitter sweet.. As if he could never remove the flavor. If I tell her I'm a big shoot good guy... What then? I don't fit the profile at all.. I steal form companies and work things for my own benefit. I could careless what happens to those around me. However, if she is my enemy it'll be wise to let her think I am a good guy. Who knows who she works for. By the way she is acting she is extremely rebellious. Could she have been one of those teens raised to do spying? But why drug dealers? Almost when he asked the question he answered it himself. He knew that some people rumored they were trading more than just drugs.... He was one of those that thought it was super high technology.

If I tell her I'm a bad guy.. Would she arrest me? That'll be fun. I do like the sound of a Master Mind Villain. I always did cheer for the bad guys. Isn't everyone the bad guy? Wasn't Joker trying to teach Batman that? Hmm It would be interesting.. She isn't bright but she could be playing me. I wonder is she that smart? So smart as in to trick me. Let's paint the play."I am the Villain Mastermind. Who sadly ran into a pretty girl." He tried to sound casual. He was tempted to put his Italian accent in there. To be flirting. He however feared she would figure out who he was in real life.

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[Akari]

((lmao, he may not need to do anything, she decide to flirt a bit,(i actually don't know how to flirt, so she's gonna say something cheesy. <.<(pathetic, i know.XD)) so bwuahaha>=] It's also kinda short, sorry. v.v))

Akari stood there as she waited for a reply. Reaching up, she grabbed a twig and snapped it off, beginning to twirl it. I wonder what's up with this dude, he doesn't even tell me his real name. Not like I'm gonna go to and announce it to everyone, geez. Oh shit, maybe telling him my nickname either, because if I tell him my real name and my nickname is in the paper, he'll know who I am. I did not think that through very well, now did I? Biting her lip. she continued to twirl the stick.

"I am the Villain Mastermind. Who sadly ran into a pretty girl."[/u]

Akari smirked. She figured she'd have a little fun now, since he was pretty hot and he did call her pretty. "The Villain Mastermind, huh?" She asked, as she began to walk over to him. "I can believe that, considering you didn't even do anything and you took my heart." She told him with a laugh, she was about a few inches away from him now, and she was really having fun. It was fun teasing guys to see how they would react. Let's see mister bird-man here lose his cool, unless he's so uptight that he won't do anything to a comment like that, although it was pretty cheesy.. Damn!! Ugh, I'm supposed to be smart...

[gingerfrost]

Leonardo gave a half playful laugh. He looked at her agian wearing a wolfish grin. He noticed it was the end of the forest. He said in a playful voice, "So muchacha.. Where you planning to take me?" He was still refusing to speak in Italian no matter how much he wanted to flirt. He would just have to do it American style.

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//Payback XD short post for me.//

[Akari]

((holy crap that is short..o.e))

"So muchacha.. Where you planning to take me?"[/u]

Akari smirked herself. "Well, considering we're supposedly on a date, just standing ij the forest isn't fun, now is it? So I guess I will have to bring you somewhere.." She told him as she turned and began to think of where they could go. It then felt like a light bulb went off as she grew a sly smirk. "I know! We could go to the police station, Mr. Evil Villain!" She told him as she grabbed his hand and began to run towards town. Really, she was kidding, she just wanted to see his reaction. A few minutes later, she stopped and looked at him, laughing. "Sorry, I just wanted to see what you would do!" She told him while chuckling.

Akari had led him to town though, but it was only to the amusement park. Lights and music glowed in her eyes and rang in her ears. "Looks fun, right!?" She asked cheerfully as she turned around and looked at him. "Perfect place for a "date"! Plus, I haven't been here before.. Um, I hope you have.." She told him sheepishly as she rubbed the back of her head. It's embarrassing to admit I've never been to an amusement park before.. Oh well, when someone's life is like mine, you hardly got time to play. Not to mention my life will be over when I return..